Sam Handley was dying. And to make matters worse, his team hadn’t even won the game.
Despite a heroic effort from Handley, the star midfielder who recorded five points with broken ribs and what he later learned was a ruptured spleen, Penn blew a late lead and dropped the 2020 season opener at Maryland.
“He played an unbelievable game,” Quakers coach Mike Murphy said. “Credit to Maryland. They were clearly ready for him. Just an unfortunate injury."
Then he paused, before adding: “Injury seems like an understatement.”
Handley didn't feel right on the bus ride back to Philadelphia. The pain in his side was excruciating. He told Murphy, took some Ibuprofen and figured he'd feel better in the morning. Maybe this was just his body reacting to the first game of his sophomore season, against a physical team that targeted him specifically in its game plan.
Then again, Handley is a bruising 6-foot-5, 230-pound freight train of a player. He’s not usually the one gutting out a painful bus ride home.
“It’s physics,” Handley said. “Momentum equals mass times velocity. I’m moving pretty fast and I’m just a big dude. If your momentum is higher than the guy you’re colliding with, you’re usually able to withstand it.”
That 2020 opener came on the heels of a freshman season in which Handley etched his name into Penn’s record book. His rookie year was something special. He racked up 61 points (35 goals, 26 assists), earning first-team All-American and Ivy League Rookie of the Year honors. It had long been impossible to miss the massive Handley on the field. Suddenly people were noticing the lightly recruited former attackman from Portland, Oregon, on the stat sheet, too.
“If he gets a running start on his defender, it's like an 18-wheeler going downhill," ESPN analyst Paul Carcaterra said.
That’s a more poetic way of saying what Josh Hunt, Handley’s long-time strength and conditioning coach, said about him. “He’s a menace,” Hunt said. “He’s a monster.”
Even monsters bleed if you prick them.
Or in Handley’s case, break their ribs. They still don't know for sure what play caused the injury. Maybe it happened when Handley had his hands up while an opponent slid to him. One of those moments that happens a hundred times a game.
He came off the field for a few minutes. Everything seemed alright. The ball was in his stick during the waning moments of the game, which was suddenly out of reach.
Later that night, Handley met his parents for dinner. The pain was off the charts. His family rushed him to the hospital. His stomach was filled with blood. The broken ribs had ruptured his spleen. “I was straight up dying,” he said. “Shivering. Holding my stomach. Feeling awful. If I had gone to bed that night I definitely wouldn’t be here.”
The spleen makes and recycles blood cells. If it ruptures, blood will leak out in a phenomenon known as internal bleeding. Eventually there won’t be enough blood in the vascular system to maintain blood pressure. They had to split him open. There was so much blood the doctors could barely see what they were doing. The 10-inch scar down his abdomen is now a permanent reminder of the emergency surgery that saved his life.
“I’ve never had a player go through that,” Murphy said. “You see guys tear their ACLs, head injuries. But that one in particular, I’ve never been around anything like that.”
Aside from the fact that he’d die without one, a guy doesn’t really need his spleen to play lacrosse. If it happened a few weeks earlier, Handley doesn't think he’d have ended up missing any games. He couldn’t wait to get back on the field.
But this was 2020. Handley, and everyone else, was about to get very used to waiting.