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ut not being able to compete like he used to was frustrating, Toran said, and he dealt with a lot of anger over that first year. Socially, he struggled, too.
Because his brain needed extra rest, he could only handle half days of school and it’s taken two years to complete his senior workload. He hardly remembers anything from last year, though he still managed good grades and appeared fine on the outside.
“His intelligence wasn’t damaged, which is good, but, he really struggled socially,” Cortney said. “With a brain injury, they look completely fine on the outside, so kids at school who had been his friends and teammates slowly one-by-one started leaving his side. They just didn't think he was as injured or he was faking because he looked so good. ... That was pretty devastating.
“You add all these things to a kid who has completely changed. He’s not the same person he was. He’s struggling to just have some normalcy and then you add all these things on top of it, it was just a rough year.”
Toran attended practices with his lacrosse club last season just to feel like part of the team still and did what he could without contact. He even ran cross country to experience that competitive edge again.
Finally, last summer he was cleared to play, and that is when he said he started feeling more like himself. On Feb. 24, just 20 months after the injury, Toran played his first lacrosse game, and he helped Gold Country to a one-loss regular season as the team’s third-leading scorer.
“Relief, pride, shock, pure joy,” Toran said when asked how it felt to get back on the field. “Lacrosse always meant so much to me. The fact I’m able to be back on the field after such a horrific thing is just amazing. When I got clearance to play at my one-year checkup, I was bawling my eyes out I was so happy.”
Cortney still winces at times while watching Toran play, but couldn’t bear to hold him back from the thing that provided so much hope during a difficult recovery.
“There are times where there will be a couple defenders on him and I hold my breath,” Cortney said. “I do that with everything he does, especially when he started driving again, and he just has to be careful. ... It’s something that could have happened in our backyard, and you can’t bubble wrap them as much as you’d like to. Sports have done my boys more good than harm, even though Toran suffered this. They still have taught them to be the men they are today. It’s just a huge part of our lives.
“Lacrosse was kind of the focal point to get him better. It saved his life. It gave him a reason to get better. How could we not let him play?”
Maronic, the Stampede’s third-leading scorer this season, will graduate from Bear River on June 8. He plans to attend Boise State and study physical therapy. He also travels the country to talk with athletes suffering from TBIs.
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o the untrained eye, Toran is every bit the athlete he was before the injury, a strong, 6-foot-2, 185-pound lefty with all the tools to be successful.
He was named Gold Country’s 2016 state tournament MVP after helping the Stampede rally from a five-goal deficit in the third quarter of the Northern championship game, scoring three goals coming out of halftime en route to an 11-10 win over Oakland Tech. Gold Country went on to claim the state title the next game with a 19-5 win over St. John Bosco.
“He’s just a stud,” Porter said. “In my 10 years coaching high school lacrosse, he’s the best I’ve coached between restraining lines. He can come off the ball and dodge, he’s so elusive, fast and quick. He’s the best athlete I’ve ever coached from soup to nuts. He’s a natural lefty and has a blazing shot. It’s huge to have a natural lefty with his athleticism and shooting ability.”
Toran still has that ability. He entered May with 30 goals and 18 assists, and Porter has a few plays designed specifically to catch him coming across the field to bury a shot.
However, Porter notices there is still some trepidation in Toran, and understandably so.
“I recognize there are parts of his game that are absent, but even with that, he’s head and shoulders above the average player,” Porter said. “He’s just not as quick and as sharp as used to be, and he would be first to tell you that. He was performing at such a high level and few can perform to that level, so even now he’s a huge contribution. But without the injury, he would have 100 points. That’s how good he is.”
Toran knows he’s not the same player he was. He probably could have gone on to play college lacrosse had it not been for his injury, but even to this day, he still battles fatigue. The rigors of a collegiate sport would be too much to handle.
Instead, he will attend Boise State, where he plans to study to become a physical therapist and help athletes get back on their feet after injuries.
Even now, Toran is already making a difference in the lives of others experiencing traumas similar to his. He and his family began T3 Charities (‘T’ for Toran and No. 3 was his football number), which is self-funded, to help people with traumatic brain injuries, as well as locals facing hardships.
Toran travels the country and talks with athletes suffering from TBIs, offering hope and advice to their families, and T3 Charities provides care packages and financial assistance.
“The No. 1 thing for a lot of these athletes is losing the sports,” Cortney said. “They don’t know who they are without it, and there’s a lot of depression that goes along with it. Toran faced some of that but was able to pull himself out of it. He gives people hope they can come back from it.”
Toran is the picture of hope for anyone dealing with a tough situation, Porter said.
“Life was good,” Porter said. “He was athletic, got good grades. To have it taken away in a blink, it’s heart wrenching. To come back like he did, he’s humbled by it. He’s a miracle. I saw him in the ICU, and I’ve been in medicine and seen a lot of neurotraumas. I see what happens to a lot of these people. They’re drooling on themselves. They can’t help it. No one can believe he rehabbed like he has. The odds were stacked against him. But, he’s a survivor and doing something with it.”