Years later, Zempolich’s voice still cracks when she discusses Rodgers’ death, but the first 365 days were some of the hardest of her life. The two had parallel narratives woven throughout their lives and collegiate careers — injured at the same time, mental health issues. Zempolich struggled with survivor’s guilt.
“It was like, ‘Why am I OK, and she is not? How could I miss these signs? Could I have done more?’” Zempolich said.
Zempolich went to therapy, sometimes multiple times per week, to work through her pain. Finally, as the one-year anniversary of Rodgers’ death crept up, she decided she wanted to visit the gravesite. It was May, and Rodgers’ birthday was coming up. The timing seemed as right as it ever would. She called Dona Rodgers, Morgan’s mother, who decided to join her. Former Duke teammate Anne Slusser did, too. After visiting the grave, Dona Rodgers invited her back to the house.
“It’s kind of a nightmare,” Zempolich said. “I wondered if she’d ask what happened and what went wrong.”
But she’s ultimately glad she went.
“We were sitting around, and we were like, ‘Something needs to be done.’ I was so sad that Morgan passed. Ann and I had gone through our own mental health struggles.”
Shortly after, Morgan’s Message was born at a barbeque with some of Rodgers’ former Cardinal Club Lacrosse teammates. The non-profit amplifies stories, expertise and resources to help student-athletes cope with mental health.
What started as a podcast called “The Mental Matchup” in 2020 has grown into a movement. One story originally told on the podcast by Vanderbilt attacker Cailin Bracken turned into a viral written piece that was re-published with permission on the USA Lacrosse Magazine website and made it all the way to the popular morning program “Good Morning America.”
There are now 950 ambassadors. The Duke football team and Virginia men’s lacrosse team have sported Morgan’s Message decals on their helmets. High school and college teams around the country have hosted games in honor of Morgan’s Message to raise awareness for mental health.
But despite the publicity and exponential growth, Zempolich is still focused on the core mission of the group: Just reaching the one person who needs help.
“Our main goal was that we don’t want anyone else to lose their Morgan,” Zempolich said. “Selfishly, I don’t want anyone to feel how I felt when I was at my lowest of lows or how Morgan felt. If I could do anything to help one person, it will be worth it. If I can honor Morgan, it’s a cherry on top.”
The growth is due, in large part, because of the demand for resources. This semester alone, multiple student-athletes have died by suicide, including Binghamton University goalie Robert Martin. In the span of one week in late April, two female student-athletes died by suicide in Wisconsin track’s Sarah Shulze and James Madison softball’s Lauren Bernett. It’s a sign that Morgan’s Message has so much left to do despite all the organization has done.
“Whenever we hear of someone dying by suicide, it’s like a dagger,” Zempolich said. “We’re doing so much, yet it feels like so little sometimes because people are still passing … and I’m sure there are more people we don’t hear about because they don’t get publicity.”